This weekend is the first hurdle to clear with you gone. Mother's Day. You haven't even been in heaven a whole month and mother's day comes. Not the best timing, but we will survive.
Your main concern when you were sick was us kids. Your concern for us was truly amazing. I am doing ok mom. Yes I miss you, and yes I cry alone in the car. However, my kids keep me going. I am now seeing how you made it through the tough days when we were younger. We may have made the day stressful and long, but it was what got you through. The twins are pulling me out of bed each day, even when I want to just stay in bed and spoon the dog. I want to keep the blinds shut and watch Daytime TV all day long and just rest.
It wouldn't be fair to the kids, if I laid in bed all day and felt sorry for myself. We need to get out and enjoy spring. After the long winter we had we deserve it.
We need to get out and teach these kids about cow utters and where milk and pee come from. Very confusing now that they are aware of Utters!
The farm nearby has some new baby calves roaming around. Yes, even seeing a baby calf and it's mother reminds me of you.
Just as the beautiful oak tree. Right now it may look dull and sad...soon it will be full of leaves and be green again. I know the same will happen to my feelings. Just a sad time right now, but brighter days are ahead.
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