This post is a little late. Your 63rd birthday would of been this past Sunday. My very talented coworker put together this slide show below.
We are gearing up to head up north next weekend. It will be year #2 without your presence with us. As much as I miss you like crazy, I feel sort of like a new person lately. You taught me so much in life, and you keep teaching lessons even though you are not here with me.
I have had to learn to self soothe myself in many situations, where I would once of called you to let you calm me down and tell me how to move forward. Self soothe, I haven't used that term since you advised me to let the twins cry it out in their cribs, so we could sleep.
All I would have to do is call you, and you had a way of assessing my voice or body language at the drop of a dime. "What's Wrong?" you would spout out before our conversation would hit the 30 second mark. I thought it was crazy how you could do this.
Guess what...I can read Charlie and Lilly like a book. I can sense when they are about to cry, get mad, or attack one another. I swoop in and try to make things better. I know when they need a hug, or when they need time alone in their room.
Things that I used to worry about that didn't matter have made their way to the back burner in my mind. I am taking everyday I have as a gift and not letting things get to me that I can't change a damn thing about.
Miss you so much Mamma!
Love,
Dew Bug
I love you long after you're gone gone gone
~Phillip Phillips
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