One would think my fingers were frozen lately, with my lack of posts. You would think I would post everyday since we are stuck inside most of the days/nights. Just like every other winter, it is cold! It seems like we say the same thing year after year.
I just saw a reminder on facebook that the Social Ice Event is this weekend in Downtown Rochester. It is an annual event, and I had wanted to attend for years and it never seemed to work out. Last year I got to attend, and I was excited. I was in town, and already downtown at Methodist with you. It was one of your last hospital stays, before we had the baseball bat blow.... drugs aren't working, mom can't handle it anymore, we have to say the "H" word that has been lingering over our heads since day 1 of this journey.
Anyways, you were at Methodist, and we watched out the window of your hospital room the cold air blow, and evening set it. Karrie and I went down to it for a bit, and ended up at the Loop with Chris, T, and Kelly. We had a good time. I didn't come 100% prepared and Karrie let me borrow some warm winter items.
That seems forever ago to me right now. I still catch myself looking back, and I get a TON of different emotions and feelings. I catch myself finding other stuff to think about, just so I don't have to revisit some of those memories, and then I catch myself wanting to freeze some of those memories with you. It is like a roller coaster. I find things every single day, that I tie back to you one way or another.
We had the honor of donating money on your behalf to the Eagle's Cancer Telethon in January. We live your legacy Mamma!
Jason Tupper commented on our family picture from the summer, and told me I looked so much like you! It just made my week to think I look like my beautiful Mamma. One of these days, I will also have your cool calm patience with life, too.
Miss you so much!
Love,
Mando
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